I have had a challenging week, no air in the house for 4 days, my daughter wanting to go, go, all the time.. I think she doesn’t realize that I actually do have to work sometimes.  Business has been slow for me this summer so I have been able to dedicate alot of my time to my daughter, spending time at the pool, going to the gym or going to the water park,etc.. But the last couple weeks I have had some appraisal business and so I have had to buckle down and work, work, work…

Well, for Taylor she just doesn’t get that she thinks mommy is supposed to be free to play and hang out all the time.  So, yesterday I took a break from working and we invited our neighbor and her kids to come over and spend the day at the pool and that was fun..But my phone kept ringing and ringing, everytime I got in the pool the phone would ring and it seems liked everyone needed me to help them out right then and there and then the A/C repair guys showed up and so everyone was enjoying the pool and eventually I got around to it.

Today it was back to work, working on appraisal reports  that were due out and once again my daughter was not getting it, she was like “mommy how long are you going to stay down in the office”, I told her probably all day and she just thought it was the end of the world.  I had to research and write reports, do laundry for her trip to grandmas, take a shower, trim the dogs and then drive out of town to meet my mom so she could pick up my daughter for the weekend.

I tell you, I love my mom I don’t know what I would do with out her. She has been getting my daughter for 1 weekend a month every since my daughter was like 6 months old.   So, I say god bless her without her I would never have a day to myself.  My husbands mom barely ever even speaks to us, she lives 20 min away and doesn’t bother to come see her granddaughter or call her but once or twice a year, and my mom live 2 hrs away and we both drive 1hr and meet in the middle every single month, its good for me, its good for Taylor and my mom loves having that weekend with her and Taylor gets to see the rest of the family every months as well. 

I always look forward to this one weekend each month, wether I have plans to go to the cabin on the lake or just sit at home all weekend and do nothing at all, I love being able to have 2 days to myself.  As most women know, even though its not true for all men but most expect the moms to handle all the child rearing and that means, they go on coming and going as they please, never skipping a beat where we have to plan to get them to stop and stay with the kids so we can run to the store or doing something without having to always bring the kids along..It must be nice to not have to be a parent all the time and just pick and choose when you get to do it, because we don’t get that luxury..I am mommy 100% of the time no matter what, I am here if the school calls, if she falls and scrapes her knee, wants a snack, needs her clothes washed, wants to go swimming, needs to take a bath, going to grandmas for the weekend, its me I am always mommy, no one will ever be  able to say I wasn’ t there for my daughter.. Isn’t it amazing how we sometime feel we have to ask our husbands permission to leave the house alone without having to take the kids or convincing our husbands to take the kids with them every so often..I mean my husband never has to ask me to keep Taylor while he goes fishing, golfing, etc..he never has to say to me “why don’t you let her ride with you to go to the store, or where ever I am going.    I know this ins’t true for all dads, because I know some pretty amazing daddy’s out there and so I love to see a man who gets that being a parent doesn’t just mean providing sperm, or bringing home a paycheck to pay bills, being a parent is an all the time, round the clock job, so god bless those men who do get what parenting is really all about.

So, now with all that said I hope to enjoy a peaceful, relaxing weekend and hopefully hang out at the pool with some Strawberry Margaritas and later sit by the firepit..Oh, I can feel the relaxation beginning already !!

We enjoyed a long relaxing weekend for the 4th of July.  It was good to sleep in and hang out at the pool with my daughter. We cooked out and watched movies and even did an evening swim and watched fireworks from the pool as neighbors put on their own shows.  We didn’t get to go out to watch fireworks as my husband was working on 2 college classes that were both due out Sunday evening, but we still enjoyed our time.

Oh, I also did the fire pit and lit the pool and backyard up with the torches and so it was all very laid back and relaxing.   Something I have realized over the past few weeks with my daughter out of school, is that I enjoy just being a mom and not always being stressed out by work.  I have been doing some re-organization around the house getting things in order and just spending time with my daughter.

I don’t know if I am supposed to feel guilty for not wanting to be working and making money, usually I am stressed that business is slow and that I am not contributing enough to our home. But I am contributing every day by taking care of our daughter, the house, our three dogs and doing what ever work comes along, so I have become content with being here for my daughter and just being mom for awhile until school kicks back in and then I will get focused back on work but right now it just feels right to focus on her for these next few weeks.

Time passes us by so fast, it seems like she was just a baby not to long ago, so I think its important to make time when we can for our kids and so being out of work can both be a curse but also a blessing if it brings me closer to my daughter.  I think some times we lose focus on the important things in life, nothing is more important than our children and our families, so if we struggle a little bit it won’t kill us.  Luckily we are not like some families whom have lost homes, cars, etc..I am out of work but my husband is working and I get some HUD and appraisal work from time to time and so far we keep it balanced out, our daughter is still going to her private school so its not so bad for us.

We have spent this year focusing on just paying off our debt and trying to be prepared for whatever comes along and we are not well off at all so we have to save and prepare because you never know what will happen in todays economy.  

Well, I have said enough about that stuff, so hopefully everyone had a great weekend as I did and lets look forward to many more and please remember that family is everything no matter what you go throug h or what you may lose as long as you have your family by your side you can make it through anything and tell your kids and spouse you love them everyday..til next post!!